You Always Find Me

PEABOD starts "You Always Find Me" inside a head full of fog, jumping at shadows while a familiar dread "takes all the breath I had." The images are lonely and mechanical: "a dial tone, a dead line," a wordless groan, a deep sigh. The question "Who hears my cry?" sits in the middle of the first verse with no answer attached.

The second verse admits something harder. The narrator locked themselves out "on purpose," burned by a friend who "left me in the lurch," and now feels cast aside and dejected. The plea "Show me a resurrection" is the one moment of open asking, and it comes from someone with little left to bargain with.

The refrain supplies the reply: "You always find me," even when "the night is thick as blood" and the door slams shut behind. Near the end the lines shrink to repeated "you always," as though the singer is slowly learning to rest in that. It sits close to the psalmist's confession that there is nowhere to go beyond God's presence, and to the nearness promised to the brokenhearted.