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Lament
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Sep 30, 2026 updated
Heart album
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Song Meaning
Audrey Assad names two competing biblical postures in her opening line — 'I'm Mary and I'm Martha all at the same time' — refusing to resolve the tension Luke 10 sets up between Martha's busy service and Mary's stillness at Jesus's feet. 'I am a picture of contentment and I am dissatisfied' keeps both states true at once rather than picking one as the honest answer.
'You wrestle me at night and I wake in search of You' reworks Genesis 32:24's account of Jacob wrestling with God until daybreak, but flips the ending — Jacob's wrestling produced a new name and a blessing; this song's speaker wakes only to keep searching, no resolution handed over yet. 'How long, how long until I'm home? I'm so tired of running' repeats as the song's entire close, refusing a tidy conclusion — the lament stays a lament, ending on exhaustion and an open question rather than an answer arriving on schedule.
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I'm Mary and I'm Martha all at the same time;
I'm sitting at His feet and yet I'm dying to be recognized.
I am a picture of contentment and I am dissatisfied.
Why is it easy to work but hard to rest sometimes,
Sometimes, sometimes
I'm restless, and I rustle like a thousand tall trees;
I'm twisting and I'm turning in an endless daydream.
You wrestle me at night and I wake in search of You...
But try as I might, I just can't catch You
But I want to, 'cause I need You, yes, I need You
I can't catch You, but I want to.
How long, how long until I'm home?
I'm so tired, so tired of running
How long until You come for me?
How long, how long until I'm home?
I'm so tired, so tired of running
How long until You come for me?
I'm so tired, so tired of running
Yeah, I'm so tired, so tired of running
I'm so tired, so tired of running